Day #10

Couldn't sleep as well as he wanted to, but he woke up slightly clear on what to do ahead. Yeah somehow he managed to do some thinking during his sleep. He knew he had to do something about it, otherwise his day would be pretty much screwed. (Am sure no one appreciates a guy who can't get a hold of himself). He decided that to work things out one at a time. That first thing for the day is to go to work and get things done!

Thanks Chuck! You gave him courage, LOL

Whilst getting to his first appointment, he got stuck in a jam for an hour. Being late is one thing, but he had a feeling that the other appointment might be off. True enough for him, when he did a checking on the next appointment. A lil' let down, but he knew he would have time for the remaining works at office, before the big company meeting.

At office, he got a message from her. She told him that he had gotten it all wrong - it's not a goodbye message, it's just merely a "give me some space". *facepalm* How could he have misread that message? *double facepalm* What a turnaround and he exhaled in relief! Well, he understood that, but didn't know what to reply he just sent in a smiley. He then realized that his approach actually created unnecessary pressure for her. All she needs at this moment is just a friend who cares for her, and not some guy whose going after her.

Couldn't had done worse than he already did.

The awkward moment...

So, he made another decision that day - respect her decision, give her space, and be a friend when she needs him. It'll be a little hard and awkward to just reverse things, so he sent her a friendly message just to tell her that if he's always a text or a call away, if she needs a listening ear.

Ain't he a sweetheart? =P
he's the white one obviously!

He hopes she knows this.

Well actually, he isn't unhappy that it happened, rather much glad that he got to experience a situation like this at early stage. He figured, he might land himself in this kinda situation in the near future, when the lady has her monthly moments. "Why wait till then right?" is what he had in his mind. So, all he has to do is just back off, way off. She'll talk or text when she wants to. After all, once a lady indicates "I need space", it's probably too late for any guy to come about - He's guessing that her interest level in him at the current moment would be pretty low already (with what he interprets as groveling, it kills any chance at all), better not jeopardize it to the point of no return. Trying to fix things might just worsen the situation, and unless her interest level in him goes up a notch, it's just best to let time play into its course.

This picture resembles very much of her..
He knows what's on lingering on her mind, and it'll probably take a longer time to get over the past.
He's gonna give her some space and some time for himself to work on other things.

This is what will happen if he pushes or doesn't know how to chill.
God forbids this to happen; he smart enough to barely made it out alive.

He states that he is not the conventional person.
She'll see in time =)

This is something that happened to pop up on his screen,
while he was searching for other graphics.
He find this very meaningful =)

(So how what will come about on the days ahead? He doesn't have a clue yet, but he's sure something will come about. He's positive *smiles* and confident about it)

Nuff' said =P

Day #9

Not having a good sleep at all, really got to him. He was just in one of the worst of his days. He had a bad feeling on how the day would go, but immediately came up with lots of happy thoughts and bright new moments he'll be having when things go well. That lifted up the mood for him.

It's the only way to brighten up the day =)

At work, he just "stepped on the gas pedal" and "went the distance". Although it wasn't much of his expected results with his clients, he couldn't care less and just went on doing what he do best. The day went on pretty fast, and then it was time to get off work. He didn't get a single text from her since the night before. He anticipated for the worst the come.

Full speed ahead!!

May things go well...

Acknowledging that it might be a troublesome night, it was pretty quiet for him. Took the night to reflect on what's happening so far, and to take a good look on how he'll be moving forward. Doing so, he soon fell asleep in the midst of his plannings. He expected something to happen, anything at all. But nothing did. His mind was wandering about, and he just laid his head on his pillow. And felt asleep without realizing it.

Woke up in the middle of the night to find a text from her. He might have thought it's a loud shout, or fair warning, or anything as such. Never would he thought it would be PONR (Point of No Return). His surprises the day before might have gave her a little too much pressure, or scared her off. But she was still very nice to the end of the text. By then he knew, that's it and no more. Not more could he do, nor offer. Even being friends may make her feel awkward.

Pass this point, and all is devastated

feewwwww ~~ *sounds fading off*
thump! *sound of the red heart hitting the bottom of the bin*

It wasn't that bright at all.
It was pitch black then.

It didn't take him even 10 days for this to happen... It's over. Well, technically nothing started. But realizing that, makes him feels even worse.

Mmmm mmmm...

(Guess the story has to stop now, eh? ...
Well, even if it's only him, the show MUST go on!
Going ahead, it'll be about him and his journey to the ... west~ LOL no freaking way!
Okay that was lame, but it did made him feel a little better.
Think he'll be alright when morning comes, hopefully)

Hey, can't just stop 'cause of some hurdles right? =)

What Can You Do If You Can't Cry It Out?

A friend of mine shared with me, that he is unable to cry out his despair and stress, unlike so many others. All he knew and was ever taught is just to "put a sock in it", "suck it in", and "man up". At his pit-moments, he wants to cry his heart and scream his lungs out, but he never had a place he could do so. So what he always did instead was to pile up with more work to rid himself of the misery. Days, months and eventually years passed by and without realizing, he had shield away his emotions. By the time he realizes it, he had actually distanced himself from many around him, including his family. Today, he struggles to work to open up to others. But from time to time, he has been put to a lot of challenges - financial, career, relationship, and self belief. Solving one after another, it almost seems endless to him. He feels pressured, and almost very tensed all the time. He just doesn't know how to go about it. He's been troubled by it and everything just seems "foggy".

I don't know how to help him, but just to be around him - like a shadow, not uttering a word but present around the subject. Many times have I suggested ways to relax, to be laid back, to not expect too highly of himself, but nothing has gone through. I could only watch him go on day by day. I'm happy for each time he gets back up on his two feet, but my worries grow each time he falls back down, because it seems harder and deeper in he falls. I really hope I could help him, but I don't know how. All I can do, is just to stand by him.

Do you have a friend in similar situation? What can I do to help my friend out? How can I help, other than just being there?

Day #8

Things are yet to go back to normal, not especially when his primary car is still at the workshop and he has to send him mum to work every morning before he goes into office. He got in work late, due to slow traffic, but he had anticipated it. She woke up late (got to work late too) and she was not happy. He learns that her boss wasn't that all nice with her, and was told to be a little cautious while talking her - no one should ever piss a lady in rage, not unless you wanna get burned.

he bet that's her expression throughout most of the day.

He was bogged down by the loads of work that seems never ending. So he placed more concentration at work, whilst at the same time, just hoping that she's alright (though he knew that she'll be able to handle things well by herself). Nearing the end of the day, as he still in the midst of his work, she was nearly going ballistics. Unsure of what he can do to make her feel better, he just did up a simple surprise for her. He made the necessary plannings to accommodate the surprise. Like all plans, they need to be executed. And so he did.

That's not him, but that's how he looked like planning the surprise.

He dropped by her office after his last meeting. Quickly he wanted to pass the parcel to her colleague to have it given to her, but he was spotted before he could make a run for it. Hoping she'd be at least a little taken away by his efforts, it turns out he could have gotten a better timing - she was in fumes, and somehow his surprise didn't help one bit. A little disappointed, he understands how she felt - He's been there, he knows that some things even though for good intention, but at the wrongest time, don't look good one bit. He apologized for it.

A couple of text sent to her to apologize for his actions,
but not for his intentions.

He was out knocked out cold on his bed as soon as he got home - had to forgo all his later meetings because he had splitting headaches, and was non-stop coughing. Waking up hours later due to sleeping in wrong position, he had something light to bite and went back to bed. Then, he woke up again just before mid night for unknown reasons, and he couldn't go back to sleep. Though with his head still feeling light, he couldn't fall asleep. So, he spent time just polishing up some unfinished works, just reflecting on what had happened, and what he is going to do.

Despite disliking them, they were his only solution at the point of time.

This is too comfortable a position; He woke up with some numb limbs.

Read a message she posted, it seems she had gotten the wrong impression about him. He didn't feel the need to explain to her, not especially recalling how she reacted earlier; he only sent in an apology message. He had no intention of impressing her or showing off his creativity ('cause he knew he was creative enough =P). He just thought what he did, had a slight chance of making her feel better, so followed his heart and took a chance (but, obviously it didn't go well). He realized his actions might have dissed her (she said it before, but he ignored and went ahead with it), but there's nothing he could really do except just hoping she'd be in a better mood to talk later.

Yup, that's the situation alright, or maybe worse.

There's just too many things going on in his head.. 

Pray hard ...
oh, but he didn't forget his daily prayers for her =)

(the following days would be mundane, but who knows what might happen. He only hopes for the best.)

Possibly scenario? Well, if it happens, it'll be an epic chapter too.

That's right =)

Day #7

First thing in the morning as he stepped into his office, he is already presented with tonnes of work pending from before the new year. He had expected it, so he did his usually plannings and execution. She was mostly in and out of office doing work. So they didn't chat much.

Towards the end of work, he checked with her if she had remembered to eat (knowing how dedicated she is to her work, chances that she'd missed out on the food in between is pretty big). She told him, if all is alright and her appointment could be pushed off, she would have dinner with him. He was glad - not only she'll have dinner, but with him too. At that moment, while completing his work he just lingered around not too far away from where they were suppose to meet for dinner.

Plan changed; Eventually, he had to get his own dinner.
But he didn't felt hungry, so he had a light one.

He made a call to one of his buddies to inquire about a new laptop on behalf of another friend, and got to know this buddy isn't feeling. His buddy wanted to release stress through joy driving. He was a little worried about the buddy as he knew the buddy's driving style. He got a message from her that she'll be having dinner with her boss, and he knew he could now accompany his buddy to at least make sure that his buddy was safe. Told her about it just so that she is informed of what's happening. (The author does not wish to dwell or explain further about what joy-driving is)

I guess a picture tells it all?

He was the "co-driver" or so to say...

From instant acceleration, to tight cornering, tailgating and overtaking cars,
It was a pretty immense joy-ride they had...

After a couple hours of joy-ride, he finally got back. It was so chilly up there, that he and his buddy couldn't stand outside longer than 5 minutes. With all the cold air he had that night, he felt a little sickly. Every "fun" stuff must come to an end. After texting, telling her that he's arrived home safely, he went to bed almost immediately.

flat out on the couch to be more exact...
only to wake up in the wee hours of the morning, to crawl into bed